Posted: Sat May 19, 2007 6:53 pm Post subject:
Xeno's news
Subject description: It's terrible...
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This thread is going to be a very depressing and shocking post by me but this is one of the only places i can keep in contact with the lot of ya. Since everyone is busy.
Recently i've been having pain in the left hand side of my head near the temple. So today i went into hospital and had a CT scan on my head, chest and abdomen. Also a Bone scan in another department. I then went to the oncology area to go and see my Consultant and Dr to find out the results from one of the scans and it was the following...
I have 2 lots of cancer in my head, one in a lump on the side of my head and the other is another smaller lump right near the temple on the left hand side of my face. This has been causing alot of pain in the left hand side of my head and is also impossible to have any form of treatment to get rid of that.
I will be having Radiotherapy on that area of my head to help reduce the size of the tumor near my temple but there is nothing i can have to remove it totally. This is because it is right near a sensitive area of my brain and thus will cause some substantial problems if it was cut or anything >.<
There's nothing out there that i can have that will cure me of this, mostly because of where it is located. I can't have chemotherapy nor opperations cause of it being a sensitive area. There is nothing else i can have to help cure me so it's been classed that i've only got a limited amount of time left to live. Although it was never said how long i will have left.
I am predicting that i have around 6+ months left to live, but this is just a guess. Once i've had radiotherapy i will probably find out how long then...
This all seems like alot of bullshit or just generally naffness, but i am currently scared shitless atm. I would of told ya all in person, but everyone is busy so i can't interrupt you all any way at all. I just hope to meet you all at some point. I have so much i want to do on my own and with the lot of ya, i have limit (unknown how long) time left and so i really need to spend as much time with you all that i still have left:cry:
I'm sorry for anything wrong i've done to you all... i just want to have a good end to my life. I'll need to do a will too at some point. There's no way to cure myself anymore:cry:
Talk to you all soon:cry:
Richard xxx
I had to change the smileys so they'd work here. This is terrible terrible news, and I'm quite devastated...
Everyone who is interested, can contact me if they want the Go Xeno avvie the support Xeno banner. MSN @ yrtsmodder666@yahoo.com _________________
No, go ahead. Show as much support for Xeno as you can, man.
Man, I'm praying for Xeno...and I'm not even all that religious. I hate the fact that this is happening to one of the community's best. _________________
Wow-poor guy,can i use the pic in my sig aswell to show some support? _________________ http://www.ppmsite.com/forum/files/tifansig1_copy_180.png[/img][/url] Last edited by DeathMummy on Sun May 20, 2007 3:44 pm; edited 2 times in total QUICK_EDIT
ok this is something I can't take easily ... I hope everything will be allright.. I really do. Good luck mate. You really don't deserve this. nobody does. _________________ Criticizing n00bs is like booing at the special olympics. QUICK_EDIT
This really really sucks. I've had friends who were cancer survivors before, and it scared me pretty bad when they told me, but none of them were in this community. Bad shit seems to be happening to good people all too often anymore.
Get well Xeno, or in lue of that, just lead an awesome life. You've been a great guy in this community and we hope to squeeze a little more out of those creative juices of yours, so don't go all 'sweet chariot' on us yet. Developments happen every day. Just have hope. _________________
oh my...thats frightening news. I hope things fare much better!. hang in there . and try not to sweat it. maybe its nothing at all so all you can do is enjoy whatever time you have...because even for the rest of us anything is possible....goood luck! _________________ Delirium.. Last edited by Ickus on Sun May 20, 2007 7:16 am; edited 1 time in total QUICK_EDIT
damn, I don't know what to say... it's really bad news. Many people here don't believe in a God but to those who do, if you care enough for Xeno, just pray he'll make it.. God'll do what should be done _________________ "War.... war never changes....." QUICK_EDIT
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Posted: Sun May 20, 2007 7:56 am Post subject:
go use the time you still have left to do what you've always wanted. im not trying to make a stupid joke or insult you, but you've got nothing to lose. _________________ Please, read the signature rules of the forum. QUICK_EDIT
Same age as me.. Freaks me out . Like Chielscape said, just do all the things you ever wanted. The last months of your life should be enjoyed to the maximum. _________________ Criticizing n00bs is like booing at the special olympics. QUICK_EDIT
It's terrible, i just cant explain how i fell about it. The only thing i can do is wish him the best of luck and like others though im not religious, pray for him. QUICK_EDIT
Thank you everyone and sorry i didn't post this here myself. I've just not been in the mood to post about this everywhere. But everyone knows about this now, which i guess is the main thing.
Sorry if i've not actually provided alot of the community, but i've found i've always got on well with all of ya. Thank you for your comments and i'll try and keep in contact as much as i can... all i can really do now is to go out and about and try and do things i've always wanted to do _________________
Also Known As: banshee_revora (Steam) Joined: 15 Aug 2002 Location: Brazil
Posted: Sun May 20, 2007 4:42 pm Post subject:
Xeno wrote:
Thank you everyone and sorry i didn't post this here myself. I've just not been in the mood to post about this everywhere. But everyone knows about this now, which i guess is the main thing.
That's totally understandable. You have a lot of friends and a lot of people who cares about you. It's hard to keep everyone informed on your own. Fortunatelly, internet has this 'virotic' behaviour that makes things easier.
Xeno wrote:
Sorry if i've not actually provided alot of the community, but i've found i've always got on well with all of ya. Thank you for your comments and i'll try and keep in contact as much as i can... all i can really do now is to go out and about and try and do things i've always wanted to do
Xeno, you contributed with a lot more than you imagined. I'm not talking simply about your mod, the cameos you sent and even the competitions you helped to organize here. You were kind with the people here, helpful and I'm sure you've made thousands of people who visits PPM, Revora and other communities happier. Of course, we can't compare what you did here with what Jesus Christ or Albert Einstein did for the humanity, but that's asking too much .
I wish you a very good luck in the next months. I know you'll have hard times, but I'd like to ask you one thing: never be hopeless. Today, there might be no known cure for your problem, but we never know the future. There is always a chance, even if it's a minor chance, of someone finding a way to sort it or have a great idea and be able to include you on their experience. There are millions of researchs to cure a lot of types of cancer everywhere in the world. QUICK_EDIT
you know,the next best way to get you some energy and slow down the pain is to eat alot of garlic,becuase ive read an article that garlic helps prevent cancer so eat up...and i'm not joking..... _________________
Joined: 22 Aug 2006 Location: somewhere south of the north pole
Posted: Sun May 20, 2007 8:53 pm Post subject:
I can not belive what I am reding!? At the age of 19? I promise, I will pray for you, to the last day! And for your family and friends!
I hope that there might be a miracel cure, being made right now! (I hope...)
I hope you'll get well. Enjoy the last time!
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Posted: Sun May 20, 2007 8:59 pm Post subject:
Dupl3xxx wrote:
I can not belive what I am reding!? At the age of 19? I promise, I will pray for you, to the last day! And for your family and friends!
I hope that there might be a miracel cure, beeniug made right now! (I hope...)
I hope you'll get well. Enjoy tha last time!
prey - something someone hunts for
pray - religious _________________ DUNK! QUICK_EDIT
oh...wow...it was only a month ago when i felt some pain in the back of my head and had several checkings by the docs....but thank god its just my spine that cause the pain and it can be healed in thearapy, but i can understand how he feels, i hd and i still had, enormous fear of this case, having something unremoveable int he head is a nightmare to think over i feel so sorry for you xeno...even if i don't know you..but i can only imagine how it feels to got that results...really....i hope there is some way for you to cure that...i can just say, never give up fighting in life as long as you can. _________________ Hydraw Art on Facebook QUICK_EDIT
Sorry if i've not actually provided alot of the community, but i've found i've always got on well with all of ya. Thank you for your comments and i'll try and keep in contact as much as i can... all i can really do now is to go out and about and try and do things i've always wanted to do Smile
That bit made me almost cry. You have done more you could ever imagine. Really. You are a good person, and all the good things you did in your life, nobody can take those away from you. Your spirit will live on. You will get a new body and hopefully this time you get to enoy your life longer than this one. You are never "gone". You're just coming back as a new person. When? I don't know. You won't know you lived this life when you get back, but your spirit has more strength. When you're ready, you'll be back.
Sting _________________ Criticizing n00bs is like booing at the special olympics. QUICK_EDIT
wuss....
lol sorry for the smart as stuff but dude...
jking..
but still,i hardly know you,even so,im supporting you,and based on what ive been reading,you are one of gods wonders to these dudes on ppm.
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Sorry if i've not actually provided alot of the community
dude,you've done alot for the community,as mcuh as clazzy and the banshee have done,so dont let anybody say you have not,because deep inside at the end of the day,you know that YOU have done some thing amazing,and for that,we all rember you as a vetteran of NOD,yah NOD...not GDI...please _________________
Wow, that really is bad news. While I never really got to know you, I can only hope the best for you, and that you'll get through it. You have all of PPM backing you up, if that makes you feel any better Little comfort, but hopefully it helps.
Hopefully we'll all be able to see you and your modding work for a long time further in the future. QUICK_EDIT
Thank you people, like i've said to alot of you on other Forums or on MSN it all means alot to me . All i'll try and do now is to keep intouch with alot of ya and just do things in life that i've wanted to do for ages... towards the end of the year i plan on traveling around the world for a little bit, so i should be able to meet some of ya for a day or two
But its not promised atm, i need some other things to sort out first _________________
Thank you people, like i've said to alot of you on other Forums or on MSN it all means alot to me . All i'll try and do now is to keep intouch with alot of ya and just do things in life that i've wanted to do for ages... towards the end of the year i plan on traveling around the world for a little bit, so i should be able to meet some of ya for a day or two
But its not promised atm, i need some other things to sort out first
I can't say i know much of you as a person, but what i have seen of you makes me think of you as a well-meaning person.
I'm sorry such bad luck befell you , but, you must remember to have these results double checked before going out, it shouldn't take much time, if it is absolutely certain, i suggest you go out into the world using whatever means are accesible to you, and enjoy what it has to offer.
either way, best wishes from me. _________________ Micro TS
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Posted: Tue May 22, 2007 5:22 pm Post subject:
heh well Xeno if you're ever in Upstate NY be sure to drop by XD _________________ The Fall of Hammerfest - Epic Tiberian chain story
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I only logged in to see this, and indeed its painful, my mum has a tumour in her leg, but it's nothing serious.. doctors said it can be treated and it's at a very early stage. I never really got to know you but nevertheless I wish you good luck. _________________
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Joined: 18 Jun 2005 Location: Dordrecht, the Netherlands
Posted: Mon May 28, 2007 11:07 am Post subject:
Gosh, only 19 and cancer already... I dont have any words for this. I hope you make the best of your remaining life, and i really hope that someone can cure you of this awfull disease. QUICK_EDIT
We've never talked, I have seen your posts and looked at a few projects of yours. You always seem to have this kind and positive tone here in the forums.
I hope you eat healthy and feel the outdoor breeze in the woods for a bit.
I don't know exactly where you live, but most likely an European country similar to mine.
I hope it does get better, I don't know much about the treatment of cancer, but you need to keep on fighting, we need more nice people like you around here in the forums, we don't want to lose you
Oh my God , I just visited PPM to check anything new before dinner and now I read this, I've seen the Xeno banners in some signatures, but I didn't know what they meant... Putting it in my signature now.
Damn, I wish you the best of luck, I'll be praying for you... I'm a tad speechless at the moment... QUICK_EDIT
I don't know you at all but still I wish you the best of luck. A very young kid who was in my sisters class beat a tumor after being in coma for 4 months. I hope you can pull of something amazing like that as well. QUICK_EDIT
Joined: 20 May 2005 Location: Defiance Industries HQ, Antarctica
Posted: Tue May 29, 2007 11:23 pm Post subject:
Man that just seems so unfair and down right cruel, at the age of 19 being prognosed with two tumors that are like that, damn, I hope you get better you still have much to do.
-Kurorahk- _________________ Defiance Industries: We prefur to call it well prepaired not over kill.
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Joined: 22 Aug 2006 Location: somewhere south of the north pole
Posted: Wed May 30, 2007 4:10 pm Post subject:
@ friday-13th
The sign is RIGHT at the edge of the rules (600x200 500kb) so he is moast likely
Adding you to MSN soon (need stable internet )
@ Xeno
I am still praying to you, each day!
Just woundering, do you know how much you have left (63years??)
I really hope you can get by this, (if possible ) Get well!
@ gufu
I will fix that ASAP
@ Blackster
Ever heared of The Gimp? It is free, it's good, and it rock! A alternative to the standar PS and PSP. My new sig was made in The Gimp only, so it's not that bad. In fact, it's quite good Can give you som guides if you want some
Oh, and there is one more Paint.net Haben't tryed it yet, but I have heard it's good _________________ This is a signature QUICK_EDIT
iv read the story in a few places now but i dont think iv posted in a place that Xeno actually visits yet so im going to.
Xeno you obviously have the support of the entire modding community. I hope you pull through this and stay with us. Always remember that we are here and if you need to say something to anyone you can here. I wish you the best of luck. _________________ Kalistia Crestland (2)
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